Once In A Blue Moon

Since I have not been active online due to timely com problem,and I wont’ am not supposed to be bloggings often from now till 14/11, I have decided to treat my avid readers to a list of worth-reading posts written in the past. I took the pain to keep clicking ‘previous post’ on friendster blog because somehow I cannot put an archive in my blog.Those all sweet-loving-great-nice-smart people do tell me if you know how to do so yeah.

I would love to make a point clear to my readers (which may consist of those so-called friends in my blog who stalk my life and not leave any tag/comment or let me know that they read my blog)- Eventhough you have read all my posts, again and again, it does NOT mean you know the real me. I am still the sincere me when I blog, but then again, you MUST have a face-to-face interaction with me to really know me.

I feel sad for you indeed if reading my blog is the ONLY way you get to know me. Why don’t you just get a life? Because as far as I know, knowing someone on msn/frienster has only been done to me by one guy with NO BALLS who cannot do all the talking when he sees me/my other victimised girlfriend in overseas.

Another thing, I appreciate my true friends who told me things that other people wouldn’t have said otherwise; but do remember that we are all unique individuals with our own priorities and perspective in things, so DO NOT TRY TO CHANGE ME. Because then, that wouldn’t be me. Do not tell me what I should blog and what I should not, because you are NOT my editor. I appreciate it, but then please respect me. ^_^ I still love you all, and may be you can think about starting your blog (you may keep to yourself if you think ‘I do not want to publisize my life).

Alright so read DISCLAIMER before you immerse yourself in a list of worth-reading posts.

WHY I LIKENED MYSELF TO AN ONION

PHARMACISTS-THE UNSUNG HEROES

This is a post which got me started this friendster blog, as I wanted to share that views of mine with many people.

WHAT FUTURE PHARMACISTS DO IN LAB

MY VIEW ON SECOND CHANCE IN LOVE

It is your loss if you choose NOT to read this, because my gf in australia actuall y printed it to show her boyfriend and her housemates!!! ^_^

MY VIEW ON LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT

MOVE ON, MY FRIEND

This post was written like a letter to motivate and wake a friend up. He was down amd refused to listen to us concerned friends no matter how hard we tried to coax him. In the end we had to be harsh to be nice. I think he is fine now, take care my friend!!

MY WINNING POEM-AUTUMN WIND OF JULY

In retrospect, I think I won the contest because my feelings were genuine. A friend told me that all my emotions and feelings were conveyed in the poem. I think so too–nothing touches you more than the real thing itself. There is no usage of bombastic words, just symbolism that inspired me due to a personal experience. It is hurtful to find out though, that it wasn’t a bittersweet one as penned by me, but it is ok. I am a strong person. ^_^ Thanks to my friend, especially dear kai yee whom I think understand me MOST in that situation. Not to forget, michi darling who made me laugh with things like, ‘let’s get kerosene and burn his house down!!’. What else could I ask for when I have friends like you all?? *sob*

Last but not least, this post is dedicated to my medic friends who will be future doctors.

DOCTORS

Hope you all enjoy reading as much as I enjoy writing. You are the reason that I continue blogging =) Have a nice day and wish me luck in my coming exams!!

Nope there ain’t anything wrong with your eyes or my spelling. It is meant to be ABSOLUT instead of absolute. The title is a fusion of words from ‘Absolut Vodka’ and the korean movie ‘Almost Love’. ^_^ It precisely convey my feelings towards my darling right now.

This is another case of love at second sight.  I went there wanting to get hold of that, but instead I bumped into this.

 

hahahaha. =P What did you think I was talking about?? Introducing my new hp, my darling–Samsung X700. To think that after 2 months of procrastinating, surfing for more info, talking to friends about it and hinting my dad that I will spend around RM700, I finally bought a new hp in pj last friday.

It is irony to think that I ended up buying NONE of the models which I have comtemplated. hehe. Life is full of surprises, ain’t it?

When I asked for samsung e720, the guy at the first stall I visited said they don’t stock in that. So he recommended me another flip hp, I think it is E780. It is that so-called cool hp whereby u flip here and there to select if u want camera or MP3 player. He said it was at a promotional price of RM 699. I really thought I would end up buying that,though I told him I would think about it. (coz I wanna compare price with other stalls.^_^)

When I went to the stall which wl recommended, the lady told me that they had neither E720 nor E780. She was quick to promote X700 to me; adding that it has bluetooth,MP3 and 1.3 megapixel camera. I looked at the display hp and was like ‘nah this one not so nice’ and went on to inquire about the other samsung flip hp. She then answered all the Qs that I asked her; and she still went back to telling me if I want a hp which is affordable (within my budget) and has features that I wanted, it is still X700.  She then said ‘I on the hp and show you’ and did just that.

I guess it was fated that I would get the hp the moment I decided to give it a look. I asked her to hand me the hp and played around with it. It is Rm 600 and has all the features, albeit a lower memory space at 32 MB. I asked her how much it will be to add another memory card, adding that wl got the 512 MB for RM 120 months ago. Since I was on the hp with him, she was so cheeky to give me an eye contact and typed RM 110 on the calculator. haha. =) So in total my hp cost RM 710. Black is the new black, ain’t it? ^_^

She is a great mind-reader I shall say. I was quite pleased with the hp but I went on to ask about flip hp, not wanting to make a decision I may regret. My dad was impatient coz the parking meter was due, thus he was like. ‘wan wan why are you NOT narrowing down your options and looking at MORE hp??’

The lady smiled at my dad and told him, ’she already made up her mind, she is just checking that her decision is right.‘

Wow she really got it right!! haha. I am like that one=) I remember shopping with rac and mun waei for my bday present in sg weng. I tried on a skirt I like in Romp, yet I didn’t decide to get it because I didn’t want to make an impulsive decision. After shopping around, I was still thinking about the skirt; I then went back to the shop to try it again, knowing that I will get it. ^_^ If an item can make me go back to the shop the second time, then I am quite sure I will end up  buying it. hehe. However, I did have impulsive purchase before, but then that was a long time ago and I have learnt. ^_^

ps: I know you guys haven’t heard from me for ‘a long time’. This is NOT because I decided to go hardcore BUT because my com has prob!! My ‘wish’ in the previous post was granted; how I wish the other ultimate wishes will come true as well!!=)

It is 9 pm now and I VOW to start studying at latest 10pm. Promised. I just got back from the best place to eat hokkien mee–Ah Hwa Restaurant in Pj. Love the black hokkien mee, ok with loh mee as usual. I got to eat the ikan bakar that I have been craving for too=) Wanna know where it is? message me =)

Anyway, back to this post proper. Two more days, i.e. on the 26/10/06, it will be my pet bro’s birthday. I doubt he will read this blog but here is to wish him..

Happy Birthday Lim Yang Kind!! May everything goes well as u planned in USA=) Hope u get to marry your darling as you told me and land a job in Wall Street!! It is a pity I cannot scan the pics we took in Bentong to upload here..scanner problem.

On the 31/10/06, it will be my other friend’s birthday. This friend is someone  who is frank in whatever she says, thus she may have hurt someone unconsciously.lol. But for us who knew her for long, we know that she is someone who is NOT pretentious and speaks her mind out; and the thing I like about her is, she is straight and direct, NOT tuo1 ni2 dai4 shui3, which is a trait I kinda abhor in some people. She is great in badminton and piano; most importantly, she walked in to my life when I needed a friend. ^_^

Happy Birthday to you, Jing Tien!!

To both of my friends, I wish to dedicate this poem by Helen Steiner Rice to you ^_^

If I knew the place where wishes come true,
That’s where I would go for you..
And all the good wishes a heart can make
are sent today for friendship’s sake.

Birthdays. I always feel extra special on that day; I know to some people it is JUST a normal day. However, the sky seems bluer, the grass seems greener and all the flowers seem to be smiling at me. I can really exude the smile from the bottom of my heart. Besides feeling really great on our birthdays, birthdays are days for us to thank our mum for all the harship she had to endure (Read: labour pain) in bringing us to this world, as well as her unconditional love in moulding us to who we are today. =)

If I could really have a wish (I will turn the wish to many wishes first =P) from fairy godmother or the Big Guy up there, it will be..

1. Wish that I will be happy always.

2. Love my family more and forget grudges easily and be on good terms with them.

3. Live life with a purpose and meaning ^_^

4. Pharmacists getting dispensing rights.

Of course those are abstract stuff… my ultimate wishlist will be (in no particular order):

1.Unlimited supply of clothes from Topshop, Esprit, A to Z…

2.Unlimited supply of Perlini Silver’s Accesories

3. An Ipod Nano

4. A laptop

5. Tour around the world with compatible travel partner(s)

6. A light badminton racquet.

7. A Kawai/chun brand grand piano

8. Watch meteor rain

9. Lie on a lush green field looking at clouds on a cool breezy day; or lie on a field on a mountain looking at meteor shower.

10. I miss Lang Tengah =( I miss going to beach and holidays with friends. I miss Japan; bring me back to 2002!!

However, those are just fantasies. I pulled myself from Cloud Ninedown to planet Earth:

1.  I wish I could hang out with my friends; be it in chilis, italiannies, Paddington Pancake, restaurants in KL overlooking KL night scene…or just chilling at someone’s house.
*They are scattered all over the world..*

2. I wish to pull up my grades so that I can regain my self-confidence.

3. I wish to be a better person with a bigger heart to tolerate things, and ‘bigger eyes’ so that I do NOT misjudge a person like I DID.

Now I hope blogspot fixes the mess so that I have control back over my old blog–in time for me to blog on/after 7th November. *cough louder*

On a more serious note, I know what I will be doing on that day. I will be praying hard that I didn’t screw up my paper in the morn and will be studying hardcore for the paper the next day. How ‘exciting’ huh?

It has been a while. One week and 2 days to be exact. What have I done so far? I think I have definitely slept less and started my revision earlier compared to last sem; I am more organised in the sense that I have study plan which is a PLAN because the execution isn’t fantastic. Yeah, I succumb to temptations; I wish my tv and com will just die off, then I have nothing much left to distract me..except for my hp and phone..

Yes I think I am doing OKAY, but NOT good enough. Today during badminton session with sis, she told me, ‘jie, I am not condemning u, but then u are just NOT doing enough..you are uni student already! JUst cut down on your msn time!’ I really felt guilty, and I vowed NOT to come online till Sat. KK was nice enough to remind me of my goal, yeah I need to buck up. Dear kai yee also asked me NOT to slack, not to mention the warm sms from shin and mun waei..so I MUST STUDY!

WHY am I here? I woke up at 11.40 pm after zzzing. After badminton, we went to one u with daddy and had teabreak in chilis ^_^ we ordered a lamb and monterey chicken, my all time favourite! =) yummy…

The monterey chicken is really worth your $$ because at RM20++, it really fills your tummy, and the mashed potato is just..heavenly!! The chicken breast is nicely done, (in fact this is the ONLY chicken breast thus far that I find nice), it is marinated with some bbq sauce, topped with melted cheese . bacon and finely chopped tomatoes, seasoned with their secret sauce.^_^

Now you get the picture, literally.

This is ‘Molten Chocolate’ my SECOND favourite dessert in chilli’s. My current fav, my ultimate is ‘high and mighty pie’, whose pics I can’t google, probably due to the fact that molten choc is the signature dessert availabe worldwide, but not high and might pie. Molten choc used to be my first love though. These desserts are a MUST-TRY, especialyl with friends..hehe..because what better way to share the chun desserts? and with friends you can share out the bill, because the dessert is liek RM 19.90 each. BUT it is worth your $!!!

Alright, so I had a tiring day, that’ why I ended up sleeping early. I really have a messed up biological clock nowadays, which explains my breakouts. =( HAte it!! Since I Woke up, I went down to watch some tv, then I STUDIED dr’ s nagaraja notes for the first time. I kept telling mylself, study first, Don’tgo online!! Then after studying, I felt the urge to blog, and to listen to songs on my windows media player. Since I will be on-ing the com, and the broadband is there, it is just the matter of clicking Mozilla Firefox and MSN..

Fine I agree that you can find 101 excuses for yourself to DO something that you want to; and find 101 excuses for something you do not want to and justify your wrongdoings..=P At least I am NOT like SOMEONE who dares to do but has NO BALLS to face his music…

Anyway, after sports I feel like I just got rid of those toxins in the body, which is good because previously the toxins manifested itself in forms of acne that made my dad went ‘wan wan what happened??’ today. bleaks. I wonder why dad never complimented me on my radiant skin usually (come on tze teng came to my house one day and she thought I applied foundation when I didn’t apply anything!! hehe!!)

Ah hope I will have the perseverance to continue those HELP badminton days in uni now. If not I will feel super unfit during the holidays, and especially after the trip to malacca. =( The other day mum’s best friend said I put on weight…DID I???????????????????????????????? But she was quick to add it is not good to be too thin. I am never in the ‘too thin’ category la.=P

Well, just me rambling. I cannot post in my private blog due to some technical problem.=( I already told you ‘DON’T READ THIS’ yet why you read till here?=P cannot understand ah??lol..
That just goes to show that we human beings are ALWAYS aroused by curiosity..=P

What do you give to someone like ME who…
1. have insomnia
2. supposed to self-induce to sleep but come online at 1.54 a.m. NOW instead
3. been having the recurrent urge of blogging
4. having ‘friendsick-ness’
5. inability to focus for more than one lecture note; symptoms worsened by getting slight headache and ended up zzz on bed while supposedly ‘resting and listening to music’

Future doctors and pharmacists out there, Help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For a self-prescribed dose, I decided to think about my Post-Exam Plan ^_^

1. Explore The Curve, Ikano Power Centre

- Sing K at red box with kai yee and gang
- Spend a whole day in Borders, reading books on the comfy armchair (sipping my fav green tea/iced chocolate/frappucino in starbucls, IF the Borders in damansara has starbucks like the one in Time Squares) as well as listening to Cds on display
- Find someone to eat Paddinton Pancake with me *look accusingly at chee wei*
- Watch some exclusive movies (i.e. not showing in gsc or tgv) at cineplex

2. Watch one of the not-to-be-missed EPL match at mamak
*wish I could do that for tmr’s Man U vs Liverpool match*
(By the way I am ALL for liverpool though I know they have slim change to win=P)

3. Find someone to go skating and bowling with me. It has been SO LONG since I last did that.

4. Have sleepovers with Sinthi, Mun Waei, Shin…

5. Rock Malacca and ‘roboh’ stephanie’s house =P Get fat by stuffing myself with chun food in Malacca and…

6. Go for badminton weekly when I come back

7. Read all the books I have been wanting to read BUT cannot due to bpharm =(

- The Broker by John Grisham
- Mercy by Jodi Picoult
- Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen
- The Curtain by Agatha Christie
- To Kill A Mockingbird by Harper Lee
- Wuthering Heighs (Must find someone to lend me, anyone??? They said since I LOVE pride and prejudice, this book of romance genre is not to be missed!)
- Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince (Someone please lend me this too, though I kinda lose interest in Harry Potter)

8. Movie/Series marathon!

Movies I wanted to watch but haven’t (Do NOT laugh at me=P)
-The Click
- Rob B Hood
- Superman Returns
- Jasmine Women (starring Zhang Zi Yi)

Rewatch daisy and a moment to remember (then return dvd to chia voon)

Get the WHOLE season 1 and 2 of House from Ben and indulge myself in House’s sarcasm

9. Work in pharmacy Assunta Hospital (hopefully as planned, need to get to uni to print the letter due to con HP printed at home!!)
Thus, earning 3.50 per hour, Rm 28 per day and RM 588 in 3 weeks
The aim is NOT so much on $ making as stated in earlier posts, but to get those drug names etched in my mind. =) And to impress dad and mum so that I do NOT get nagged for ‘always going out’ and ‘organising trips’.

10 With the $$ from work, I will…

- Get that khaki coloured Seed hangbag, with a flower hanging on the strap
Priced at RM 71 after discount (the last time I saw in in Padini concept store, one u), I hope it will STILL be there..I really love it..

- Think twice and may get the multifunctional accesory which cost RM 49 from U2
It can double up as a necklace or a waist-belt. The funky, dirty-gold chunky thingy really caught my eye the MOMENT I steppped into U 2!!

- Shop shop shop!!

11. Attempt to paint the lovely daisy painting that I fell in love with after seeing it in the korean movie ‘Daisy’. May need TONS of help from kee..*nudge* Kee I know u read my blog… =P

*list is not exhausted- will be amended in my brain every now and then*

Signs and Symtoms:
-Tachycardia (rapid heart beat), cold sweat, insomnia, panda eyes

-Nausea and vomitting at the sight of lecture notes

-Hearing voices of lecturers like:
‘It is nothing but…’
‘Are you getting with me?’
‘Homogenization is to break the particles into small small particles..’

Warning:
Clinical signs and symptoms may worsen upon:
-seeing some kiasu freaks finish reading lecture notes and are now poring over mountains of reference books in library.

-hearing someone exclaim, ‘ I got 80 for natural product class test ONLY’

*roll my eyes, wishing I were deaf and blind so that I can be in my own study pace*

Risk Factors:
-Leave revision to last minute

-Sleep in class

-Skip lectures to complete PBL or portfolio

-Never read lectures notes during uni days

Complications
-Long-term exposure to high tension will predispose to breakouts, eyebags, weight loss/weight gain (depending if you have been so busy to exercise, or too busy to eat a proper meal).

-May result in failure in end-of-semester examinations if study plan backfire

Treatment:
1.Set an achievable study plan and STICK TO IT!!

2.Brain desaturation plan according to individuals:

- Blogging and chatting like what I am doing now =)

- Shopping, eating, listening to music like what I love to do

- Play sports like what I did last week
*missing badminton days in college*

- Go cyber; domination in WoW, CS or Dota will give you a sense of control *grin at guys*

3. Never compare yourself with others; do your best and God will do the rest. ^_^

Prophylaxis:
1. Always attend lectures and pay attention in class.
*a bit hard when the lecturer’s voice is zzz-inducing*

2. Read through lectures notes during uni days

3. Study once in a while

4. Lecturers should give class test on microbiology which has the MOST credit units!!
*sigh I am looking at protozoa notes for the first time and my brain is on the verge of bursting- Entamoeba histolytica, Toxoplama gondii, Taenia solium…*

I hate being misunderstood. I hate being accused of something that I didn’t do. I hate people making conclusions themselves before knowing the truth.

It is indeed hurtful, for someone who has been ok with you to think that you are ‘the bad girl’ who goes about branding people bastards. The thing is, close friends who know me know that I am someone who abhor usage of foul language, so what would have made me do such a drastic thing? It was just at that spur of moment, a slip of fingers that made me typed that word and sent it to the wrong person due to msn chat window that popped up-and I didn’t even mention his name. It must be the pent-up hurt in my heart that had accumulated thus long that made me do that.

If only she knew the truth that I had been asking people to hide from her, because I do not want a third girl to be hurt again…How could she be pissed at me when I am the victim?

Ah, this thing called love. It really blinds people. When you are in love, your other half is perfect, and whoever who dares to suggest that he/she is imperfect will be your worst enemy. I won’t blame her for that, but I hope time will make us all a better person…

A philosopher once said (should be Antoine sans de-Exupery, the author of ‘The Little Prince’) that love doesn’t consist of just two people gazing at each other, but it is about two people gazing in the same direction.

So true indeed; love is about being there when he/she is happy or sad. Love is about, wanting him/her to be happy so when you are in love, you are a giver-you give your endless care to him/her, though not knowing what the ending will be. Do you all believe that each of us has another ‘other half’ out there that is meant for us? To be there especially when we are down, to offer us comfort and support. I used to watch a movie in which the main actress believes that ‘In the beginning, God created human in pairs. They were separated to everywhere in the world; and the purpose in one’s life is to search for his/her other half.’ How romantic. ^_^

Love and hate is a matter of crossing that fine line. It is irony how two extreme things can be so closely related. They are NOT at the extreme ends in the scale of relationship. Why is it so hard for people to remain friends after break-up, or worse, you two haven’t even started anything and you two can be on harsh terms with each other? It doesn’t help if one side is being the diplomatic one, because the other side must reciprocate. It takes two to tango.

For some people like me, I believe in remaining friends because the world is so small, you both have mutual friends and you risk bumping into each other if you are in the same uni, stay in the same neighbourhood or hang out with the same group of friends. We are trying to break the barrier of awkwardness; and it doesn’t do our mutual friends any good coz they won’t know what to say to each of us. Because we know that even the culprit will have 101 excuses to ‘justify’ his wrongdoings. We acknowledge that you have your say, but that doesn’t mean that we agree with it.

However, I just cannot understand why some people choose avoidance than the hands of friendship. Is it because they are so ’self-sensed’ (word coined by ai nee which means perasan) that they think we are so NOT over them? They do not realise that people like us know our priorities in life, we have dreams to chase, goals to achive. We have many friends out there who are there for us.

All these while, we have been like that in this journey called life, then you come into our lives, we had nice memories, and then we had unpleasant ones, you left, but nothing changes in our lives!! Our friends are still there, our goals and dreams too….Perhaps the difference is the extent of ‘footprints’ (euphemism for ’scars’) that you left in our hearts.Because of the hurtful experience, we will never, ever be the same again…

For optimistic people, we evolve a stronger person. We tend to appreciate all the true friends and potential suitors who genuinely care for us; and not just treating us as a ‘back-up’.

For some people who take more time to get over the nightmare, they wallow into self-blaming. They ask themselves 101 questions, ‘why am I so
SILLY??? WHY WHY WHY???’ They feel like they can never love again like
that…but what they do not realise is, time is a healer. It really
is. Do not look at your windscreen; or worse, turn you head when you
are driving, because you NOT only will miss the nice scenery in front
of you, you risk getting into an accident!! Move on!!

My dear friend out there, I know you are strong ok, I am a shining example of how you can evolve a stronger person ^_^ We are always here for you, though we are separated by continents, valleys and oceans, there are emails, msn, hp. So never hesitate to talk to us if you feel this ‘lemon sherbet’ feeling in your heart like what I had been through; I had been there, done that and SURVIVED!! So I know. I truly know, my friend.

Love is complicated, but what is life without it huh?

PS: Please respond to my previous post on handphones. Thanks!! I promise myself to ONLY blog 3 times a week from now on since I am supposed to be hitting the books.

Thanks to sam who showed me THIS ARTICLE that speaks right to my heart, I decided to share it with you all. These are the excerpts from the article, click on the link above if u wish to read the full article.

"Girl
meets guy. Thinks he’s good-looking. Gets to know him. Decides he’s a
creep. Asks herself, ‘What did I ever find cute about him?"

"How about this one? Girl meets guy. Doesn’t
think he’s particularly good-looking. Gets to know him anyway — maybe
they have the same friends and keep bumping into each other.
Surprisingly, comes to like him. Says to herself,  ‘Gee, he’s a lot cuter than I thought.’

The
2 situations above are so true indeed!! Both happened to me!! Like I
said, what makes me fall for a guy is ‘the aura’, NOT the looks though
there must be an initial attraction that makes me want to know him
better. ^_^

Professor
(Prof): Attraction and relationship develop together. Maybe it’s
different in the animal world. There, I suppose, if you look okay, or
smell okay, you’re in. With us, it’s the other way around. If you’re
in, you start looking okay. Even ‘physical attraction’ isn’t purely
physical.

 

Girl: So you’re saying that if I meet a
guy and he doesn’t look like Jude Law, I should give him a chance
anyway, because he might look better to me when I get to know him.

 

Prof:
Something like that. Besides, looks go through fashions, just like
clothing does. Today, girls think Jude Law is cute. When I was a kid,
they thought Rock Hudson was.

Prof: There is
something edgy about maleness. Something aggressive, something that
pushes, something that wants to be strong. Seeing this, your friend
asks ‘Given a choice between a guy with an edge and a guy with no edge,
I take the guy with an edge.’ Am I right so far?"

   

Girl: Yes. But it scares her.

Prof:That’s because she hasn’t asked the second  question.

   

Girl: I’ll answer for her.

Prof:
All right. Let’s set aside the guy with no male edge; he’s out. But
there are different kinds of edges. So we ask, ‘Given a choice between
a rusty pocket knife and a diamond-edged sword, this time which do you take?

 

Girl hedged. "What are you calling a pocket knife and what  are you calling a sword?"

 

Prof: Think of it this way. That edgy male quality has to be  sharpened, polished, and oiled, right? As with any good  blade.

 

Girl: suppose so.

 

Prof:
So much depends on how well the sharpening is done. When the edge turns
out well, you get confidence; when it doesn’t, you just get attitude.
When the it turns out well, you get courage; when it doesn’t, you just
get stubbornness or moodiness. When it turns out well, you get a man on
fire to protect the weak; when it doesn’t, you just get one who wants
to use them.

 

Girl: You’re too late, Professor.

 

Prof: What do you mean?

 

Girl: The women of my generation were raised not to languish in  towers, looking for knights on white horses.

 

Prof:
I don’t know what you mean by languishing in towers, but I do know
this. If you want that male edge, and you run away from knights, you’ll
end up running after punks.

 

She hesitated. "You may have something there. But..

 

Prof: But what?

 

Girl: I don’t know any young knights.

 

Prof: At your age, most of them would still be in  training. In the middle ages they were called ’squires.

 

Girl: I don’t know any squires, either.

 

Prof: Are you so sure that you’d recognize one if you met  him?

 

Girl: Why wouldn’t I?

 

Prof: A good man’s blade is usually sheathed.

 

Girl: I’m getting lost with all these metaphors. Speak  English.

 

Prof: You’re attracted to that male edge. All right, that’s natural.  You should be. But the right
kind of edge takes longer to discover. The qualities that are the most
obvious are often the most superficial, and you have to give a guy a
long enough chance to learn what kind of man he really is."

I
remember telling sai meng back then in college that one of the
qualities I look for in ‘the one’ is ‘wen3 zhong4′. (loose translation:
reliable, matured). He answered me back, ‘wen3 zhong4? How old are we
know wo? That comes with age!’

So
I guess what this article says is right-you need to give guys some time
to mature, to get that ‘edge’. Perhaps I am meeting some squired now, I
hope I can tell the squires apart from the crowd of commoners. haha.

rAfter some chatting with my guy friends who are better than us girls in gadget, I have pretty much come up with some conclusions. By the way, I will really appreciate it if you all respond to this post ya, I need to get a hp as soon as possible. ^_^

1. Nokia is an ass; it either has forms, or functions. NOT both. So it is out of my list.

Mun Kit: Nokia is lousy; it is too common and too user-frienly. (I didn’t know being user-friendly is a downside)

Chee Meng: Everybody knows Nokia is rubbish.

Wen Leong: The 7370 has limited memory space!! (to think that I was attracted by its look in first place; what’s an attractive hp without functions, just like what is a guy with NO character?)

PS: William who has been really helpful to tell me this chun site-www.gsmarena.com in comparing hp and its features, may disagree with the above facts because he is a proud user of nokia hp.

2. You can’t go wrong with Sony Ericsson.

Even girls will say that Sony E is wroth-buying’. At the same price, it can offer you more features than other brands. 3 guys have recommended me K 750i, which has all the features I want, but it is RM 870 as stated in lowyat net.

Chee Meng has assured me that getting AP hp is ok (Cheaper ma); however I am afraid that if my hp gives prob like my sis’s nokia last time, dad is so going to be fuming mad at me for getting a AP hp!! How??

3. I have initially ruled out samsung because I thought it will be expensive and at around RM600, it can’t offer much. However, wl, who has a chun sliding samsung hp, is really supportive of samsung and thanks to him, I found a price list at lowyat.net.

I am now considering this:

Samsung E 720, RM 680.
It as built-in memoryu of 90 MB, thus enabling us to store around 20 MP 3 songs (I bet with this we cannot store pics, but this is a better deal than sony e’s Z 530i which can only store 4 miserable songs). There is blue tooth, 1 megapixel camera but NO FM RADIO.

What I think: It has almost everything I want, I love the outlook too! I guess I can do away with that FM radio… I mean, I listen to the radio in the car every morning, a hp is a hp ma, as long as it can play my fav songs, I shouldn’t be asking for more right?

Sony Ericsson Z 550i, RM 750

It has MP3 player, bluetooth, 1.3 megapixel camera and FM radio but a mere 20 MB shared memory.

What I think: At that price (still out of my budget but I will find a way *grin*), it offers the features  that I am looking for. However, I wasn’t really attracted to its look when I first saw it in one u. Acceptable but not appealing to me..

Samsung D 800, can someone tell me the price, please???????

Chee meng has a chun D 900; Wen Leong has a chun _____ (I don’t know the model of his chun sliding hp). *looks accusingly at wen leong* I have seen his hp several times and the more I see it, the more I like it. Aikz. I am too careless to be using such a high-end hp. Nope I will be a happy girl with whatever I can get at Rm 500 RM 700 (going to manja dad to raise the $ a bit, and with my paycheque after working in pharmacy in hospital- RM 13 per day, 20 days = RM 260, I think I can afford to get a hp at RM 700).

Note to self: You had better write in for the hospital job or else you may end up working as some crappy promoter, standing for NINE HOURS at some hypermarket and not being appreciated by your so-called I-am-trying-to-help-by-sweet-talking-not-action supervisor.

So what if you can earn RM 70 a day? I rather work in pharmacy in hospital whereby I can learn things and hopefully meet some young lengchai doctors or pharmacists. The irony thing is, the agency has been calling me and asking me if I want to work in december when the bloody bugger supervisor complaint about me and deducted RM 40 from my salary. BUGGER!! If I am ’so not efficient; as you put it, why bother calling me back? *rolls my eyes* Some guys are such losers!!

Working in pharmacy in hospital may earn me less, but then looking at the drugs names will eventually have their names etched into my mind;it is more effective than sticking your ass on the chair for hours and try to memorize them. Plus, I GET TO SIT AT TIMES. I am never going to work in a job which requires me to STAND ALL DAY LONG after my first stint as a promoter because I am better off somewhere with my skills, i.e. as teacher in music school or kindergarten. At least the smiles on the kids’s faces are rewarding.

PS: Please respond to my previous post on ‘advice on hp model much needed!’ Thanks a lot.

Spoiler Alert: This post is
about my views after reading ‘PS I Love You’ by Cecelia Ahern so any
disclosure of plots is inevitable. By the way, a film adaptation is
currently in development with Warner Brothers.
Stephanie aka Staph aureus, u may stop reading now…haha

However,
to me, even if you roughly know the plot, what is moving is not that;
it is more so on the conversations and on Holly thoughts from time to
time in getting over her deceased husband, Gerry. So read on if you
wish…. ^_^

As
childhood sweethearts, Holly and Gerry married each other and nobody
could have imagined that they would ever be separated. Until the
devastating news of Gerry’s death due to brain tumour… Just when
Holly thought she could no longer hear from Gerry, she received a
bundles of notes, written by Gerry while he was still alive, that guided
her along the tough phase in her life.

Each
note is meant for her to open at the beginning of each month and there
are 9 notes in there, each signed ‘PS I Love You’. For a brief overview
of the notes:

1. Holly was asked to get a bedside lamp so that she doesn’t keep tripping over in the dark.

2. Holly was asked to shop for and outfit which she would need next month.

3.
Gerry had asked her to join a karoke competition is Club Diva. (Karaoke
was her worst fear due to an embarassing incident that happened years
ago)

4. Gerry told Holly, ‘You
don’t need my belongings to remember me by; you do not need to keep
them as proof that I existed or still exist in your mind. You don’t
need to wear my swater to feel me around you; I am already
here…always wrapping my arms around you.’

So Holly was told to get rid of Gerry’s clothes and other old stuff.

5.
Gerry had booked a trip to Lanzorote, Spain, for Holly and her best
friends, Sharon and Denise. It was really sweet of him to do that,
knowing that she would love the beach.

6. Gerry guided her to check out the dorphins near the lighthouse in Lanzarote.

7.
Gerry motivated Holly to find a job, telling her to ’shoot for the
moond and if u miss you’ll still be among the stars. Promise me you
will find a job you love this time’.

8.
Gerry urged Holly to go to the Christmas ball they never failed to
attend with friends. Holly who initially didn’t want to go as she
didn’t want to deal with his absence, decided to do so after reading
the message.

9. The last message. ‘Don’t be afraid to fall in love again. Open your heart and follow where it leads you..and remember, shoot for the moon…’

A line that made impact on me was one spoken by Chris (Holly’s boss who lost his wife to breast cancer) to Holly. He told her that ’some
people spend a lifetime to search for their soulmates but never found
them. We found ours, just that we had them for a shorter time. However,
love lives on eventhough they are not around.’
(this is not a direct quote though)

What
I like about this book is that, it portrays love not only as those
‘rapid heartbeat, endless romance, countless sweet talks’. As you can
tell from the messages, it revolves around life little things; those
little things that when piece up, paint a sweet picture of what love is
ultimately all about- endless care for your loved one.

I
wonder if we were to given an expiry date to a relationship, how long
it will be. Do not be idealist and tell me ‘ a lifetime’. We all know
that as time goes by, we risk taking each other for granted, that’s why
people fall out of love. There is a sayings in Cantonese’ yan liu kai
yi fan hoi’ which, loosely translated, mean ‘we part because we know
each other so well’.

This
brings me to another thought. My mum used to tell me that people in
marriage will be more tolerant of each other, because you know there is
a commitment. Say you are really not happy with something your other
half has done. If you two were a couple, you all could just call for a
break-up. End of story.

However,
if you two are married, you will think twice. You will think, ‘we have
come this far, so why not we take a step backward and make up?’. This
is especially the case if you two have kids. My mum used to say that
kids bond two people together, because the kid is their fruit of love;
and they will have a mutual goal of raising the kids.

So
what is marriage to you? Is it a graveyard to love as what some people
harshly point out? Is it the proof of love that supposedly guarantee
you a lifetime with your partner?

I
believe that it is ‘the next level’ that couples take their
relationship forward. I believe that if you have found your soulmate,
you will want to spend a lifetime with him;
just like you have spent a quarter of your lifetime with your parents,
and why have you NOT gotten sick of them?? (though they may be times we
wish we had other people’s parents who would nag less, understand us
more….but those were transient, childish thoughts at the time of
sadness or anger)

Likewise,
we know that when two people from different family background,
upbringing, education, lifestyle, interests get together, there is
bound to be frictions. Come on, we are not always at peace with our own
siblings who have grown up with us, let alone, an outsider??
I used to ask my friends and question myself, ‘will
everything be easier if we treat out other half as our best friends? in
the sense that we ask less and do not take them for granted so much?

Yet
I find myself contradicting myself when I reach the infidelity part.
Say my best friend (a girl) is not spending as much time with me
because she has a boyfriend. I am ok with that. BUT, if the guy who is
dating me is SEEING ANOTHER GIRL, I will be fuming mad!!!

Another
example: If my buddy guy friend likes a girl and tells me, I will be
teasing him and telling him all the tricks to melt a girl’s heart. ^_^
If my boyfriend tells me how ‘hot a girl in his uni/workplace looks in
the mini skirt’ I will not be pleased because I know he is
fantasizing!! (I know all guys fantasize but the acceptance lies in the
degree of fantasizing, and how much you can keep it to yourself so that
you do not scare girls off by telling them you dream of having a
passionate kiss with them).

I
can accept the fact that we as human beings appreciate beauty- thus it
is really fine if he tells me that he thinks this girl has beautiful
eyes etc… However, if you say ‘hot’, implying figure and thus sex, it
is really frustrating =P

So
contradicting, I know. Aikz, as jin put it, we wish there is a
guidebook that tells us where the line between buddy friends is, and
where the line between couple is.

Anyway, on an acount of a totally unrelated to the above complicated issues. Yesteday I had a chun outing with ky. Just as I looked up to talk to ky in Mynews cafe, I saw a guy in black who happened to be starring into the
mynews cafe (probably one of those brief moments that we all do when we
walk past stores which show our reflections) ; at that moment I
thought, ‘isn’t that willy?’

Then
it really hit me that it could be Willy. After all it is a sunday and
he could have gotten out of ‘the pits of nottingham’ and came shopping.
He also mentioned to me that his dad is here from indonesia so the man
behind him could be his dad.

It
was like 15 minutes later that I smsed him and asked if he was in one u
because I saw a guy whom I think was him. It was him alright. However,
he didn’t see me and he was already on the way to Ikea, quoting him ’so
close yet so far’. haha. For your information, I only knew willy
through msn and friendster; I heard about him from a friend who is not
as close to me as before.He is a really nice chatpartner though we have never net before.

So
you see, it is a small world after all. People brush shoulders,
exchange gazes, accidentally bump into each other every now and then.
How sure are you that the dude whom you said ’sorry’ to while groping
about in the dark for your seats in the cinema ain’t a guy from your
uni whom you have never bumped into? Or he could be your friend’s
friend whom you will know in the future. What about the guy who walks
out of the ktm , right in front of you when the door is opened? He may
be the guy whom you have heard about from your friend but have never
met.

It
may be insignificant; yet, take a look at our friendster profile ‘How
you are connected with X’ and you will find that we are all in a web of
friendship, all linked together in the circle of life. Sometimes, it is
just that fate has not been transformed into destiny, thus we are
merely passers-by in the other person’s life.

Like I said, life is full of surprises, you have to live life to uncover them =)

Do give me your views on the complicated issue. What is love to you? Share your experience with me here, no matter it is a sweet or bitter one. ^_^ We all evolve a stronger person with every heart-break; and evolve a better person with every sweet good-byes.