Once In A Blue Moon

               ’Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle all the way…’ all the christmas songs being played on radio, the mall and hospital where I work must have reminded everyone about the festive season =) Megamall has a chun settin, magically decorated with gingerbread house (the one from hansel and gretel) along with christmas trees. Wil just had to con lindsey that they are made of sugars and chocs; come on if it were the case, it would have been gone in no time!!

                  I am not a christian but since young, I kinda have fate with christianity. When we were younger, we stayed in a shophouse whereby we rented the shop lot down there for a chapel. I remembered going to sunday schools for some time (cannot remember why I stopped going) and even acted as flower girl in a play during xmas (about the resurrection of Jesus).

                  Then my 1st piano teacher back then was a christian; so she used to ask us (her students) to have gift exchange session aroung christmas time. At times, she will treat us to some goodies. Back then, I also started to play some christmas songs like ‘Silent Night’ (my fav song back then), ‘Deck the Halls’, ‘We wish you a merry christmas’ and etc.. These few years, my fav one has been ‘The First Noel’, followed very closely by ‘Hark The Herald Angel Sings’.   Can you believe that a christmas songbook I borrowed in memorial library kl at least 10 years ago, turned out to be in tmn tun library? I found the very same book when I went to tmn tun library weeks ago-and I saw the stamp in the book, it is ‘perpustakaan peringatan kl’ alright. =) So I borrowed the book and vow to photocopy the whole book unlike a few songs back then (I still have the photocopied song sheets).

              Sorry I digress. Then in secondary school, my sis and I went to Methodist College KL (fondly known by us as mc), now known as Wesley Methodist School. You may be amused to know that my 3rd sis is in Catholic High School now; but for your information, our family is buddhists!! haha!!

                   Having said that, I am a open-minded person. I have always been fascinated by christmas songs and the hymns (I used to go for morning chapel in mc just to sing the hymns). However, I am not a christian (yet); simply because I do not want to rush into things. I have been to a church camp in form 2 whereby they tried to convert me; I was horrified and scared at that time because I saw people speaking in tongues and people being critical of buddhism and other religions. Little did I know that it was a charismatic church camp that I went to-I thought it was just a camp organised by the church so I signed up.

                  Of late, I am interested to read the bible (read book of Ecclesiastes and a bit of Genesis but it was like a history book so hard for me to go on). Lindsey told me to start on the new testament first so I guess I shall do that. What I like about the Bible is that, it brought comfort to me when I needed words of encouragement. My piano teacher lent me a book (tells you stories related to those verses they took from Bible, and it was grouped under themes like ‘love’, ‘anger’, ’sorrow’) that time and I found the peace when  I found myself being deceived by that particular bugger. Of course it was not only because of that incident that I started to take an interest in christianity.

             I totally respect and understand those strong christians/ catholics who really can feel the power of  God when they pray and read the Bible (’words of God’). However, I cannot feel that and I will not rush into things. So I really appreciate you all for not converting me, for not forcing things onto me, and for respecting other religions like buddhism too. =)

                Having said all those serious things, =P here is my wishlist; all I want for christmas is…

1. Ng May Ling. I miss her like crazy and we haven’t met each other online for months. She hasn’t been emailing me too; and ling if you are reading this, nope I am NOT blaming you ya. I know when we are apart and we are busy with our own studies and life, it is hard to be there for each other as much as we want to. But I know I can always count on you and thanks for the time u were there for me, through thick and thin! *huGs*

2. Confidence and perseverance to move on in sem 4. If I am kept waiting for too long; if I am made to feel that my effort has not been paid off, if what I believe in is a far cry from reality, then I really do not know where to find my lost confidence. I am not giving up but I am really afraid that one day, I will just lose it all.

3. Meeting sincere and nice people. I am getting a bit disappointed with how things are as we grow older; friends you make are no longer as sincere as friends you had back then. With the passing of time, everyone changes; and I stubbornly believe that the friends whom I cherish are all changing for the better..

4. More time to do what I enjoy- reading a good book, playing some nice songs on piano, talking to my dear friends and sis, baking, cooking (with sis at times). I hate it when uni comes and all we talk about is portfolio, pbl, reports, class tests and more class tests. =(

5. Travel to UK. My parents promised me that I will get to travel when I graduate but then that is not so practical since my friends will have graduated too. Since shin is going to nottingham next june, and that we will graduate in 2009, the ideal period to travel is december 2008 for me. May be dec 2007 I will work (this time for the $) to show my sincerity to parents. Then at least I am subsidizing a bit of my travel expenses. There is chee wei in london, sara in leeds, mun ling, xiu jing in manchester, shin and ling in nottingham, xin long in liverpool (I am so going to anfield to visit the stadium that steven gerrard plays in =P)…actually I really really want to go to Italy, followed closely by France and Spain.

Merry christmas and a blessed year ahead to all of you!!                                             

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